Smoke

SMOKE

A Collection of
Fiction and Non-fiction

JACQUELINE ANN GIBBS

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Author Jacqueline Ann Gibbs

Author Jacqueline Ann Gibbs

About Author

Jacqueline lived in Victoria and in Ottawa for a few years, but for most of her life she has resided in Montreal. After her marriage, she settled in Montreal and raised her family. Her fitness program consisted of enrolling in a belly dancing class, which soon evolved into teaching it. After ten fun- filled years of twirling and shimmying, she became serious about her future. Having the good fortune of being raised and schooled in both cultures, English and French, she decided to study translation at McGill University. Subsequently, Jacqueline freelanced as secretary and translator until she retired. Since then she has indulged in her appreciation of the arts, especially literature.

Excerpts

Then, like Gallant and Huston and Hébert before me I’ll expatriate myself abroad, the better to grasp the quintessential element of the Canadian psyche. I can see it now: aspiring young writers looking for me in every Parisian café…

Secrets are barely hinted at through the upward curling smoke of their cigarettes, dark eyes flash collusively, soft laughter muffles unfinished sentences. Instinctively I downplay my achievements in the hope of gaining acceptance, but to no avail. I’m the outsider still.

She went shopping instead, something she preferred to do without him anyway; a compulsive talker, he invariably tripped up any bargaining strategy she had laid out. In Morocco bargaining was a sport. It couldn’t be rushed. It was also an art—it had to be carried out with style and elegance. If both vendor and buyer played their respective part well, a deal was struck in due course, ending with congratulations from both sides for a transaction well done.

In the winter of 1951, my mother’s parents came to the city to die, less than a week apart, in a tiny flat buried deep in the bowels of Ville Émard. It was a poignant end for a lifetime spent entirely in the sunny little hamlet of Saint-Télesphore, surrounded for miles around by neighbours and relatives they had known since childhood.

Old Midge held together for several days, gamely putting up with her crew’s rough handling. But the years of neglect finally took their toll. She gave her last gasp one day and simply came apart, dumping the boys in the middle of the canal. They scrambled ashore, and silently watched Midge’s remains float towards the locks as they sat shivering on the grass, waiting for their clothes to dry before going home.

Jack sighed. His mother wouldn’t understand.

                              

We were a couple. Indissoluble, unassailable. Nothing, it seemed, could break us up. It was always with an immense satisfaction every time I would check “married” for marital status on official forms. A premonition, perhaps, would make me shudder whenever my eyes fell on the word “widow.”

                            

You can ask any widow, and she’ll tell you: the first creatures to move in with you when your husband is gone are mice. They sense the stillness, the utter desolation that creeps in after the master is gone. Soon the other invaders follow. Spiders, ants, bugs, usually so discreet, so timorous, now defiantly and confidently settle in even as you watch them.
Cleo always emerges unscathed from her romantic entanglements, while the rest of us suffer. Discarded lovers wash up on my doorstep, eyes dazed with pain, uncomprehending, and it is then incumbent on me to dispense healing words before sending them on their way. I sink in a deep depression and cry for days afterwards, while she resumes her brilliant trajectory, unfettered and untouched.

                     

Jacqueline Ann Gibbs “To write!

To write, and set the world on fire.”